I’ve realized that going below 300 calories makes me a much meaner bitch unless i’m fasting, so i’m sicking to the 500 calories or less as far as my intake. I wanted to address some e mails i’ve gotten regarding meal plans and so on, i know a lot of people (like me) feel safer when the meal plans are written out for them, it also makes it less stressful to figure it all out.

I’ve found two blog posts that i’ve decided to post on here for reference. The first one is actually something a friend from work told me about. and it actually does make a lot of sense, she did say her aunt who’s a nurse talked about it and she wanted to lose weight so she did it. and she lost a lot of weight, considering she’s not fat at all i believe her because she said she was a stick compared to now and she doesn’t weight more than 110 right now.

Overview

The Cardiac 3-Day Diet is recommended by people who wanted to lose weight fast. The origins are uncertain, however, it has been suggested that this diet originated in Birmingham, Alabama in the cardiac unit of a local hospital. According to the diet, the plan was used to help cardiac patients lose large amounts of weight before surgery. The mix of foods is intended to boost metabolism and maximize weight loss, so it’s important you eat only the foods in the plan.

Step 1

Consult your physician before starting this diet. Review your medical history and any concerns during your visit and seek her advice on following the 3 Day Diet.

Step 2

Follow the menu below on your first day. Do not substitute for other foods. Breakfast: half a grapefruit, one slice of toast, 1 tbsp. of peanut butter and black coffee or tea. Lunch: ½ cup of tuna, one slice of toast and black coffee or tea. Dinner: two slices of your choice of meat (3 oz.), 1 cup of string beans, 1 cup of carrots or beets, one small apple and 1 cup of ice cream (vanilla)

Step 3

Follow the menu below on your Second day. Do not substitute for other foods. Breakfast: one hard-boiled egg, one slice of toast, half a banana and black coffee or tea. Lunch: 1 cup cottage cheese or ½ cup of tuna and five Saltine crackers. Dinner: two wieners, 1 cup of cabbage or broccoli, ½ cup of carrots or turnip greens, half a Banana and 1 cup ice cream (vanilla).

Step 4

Follow the menu below on your third day. Do not substitute for other foods. Breakfast: one hard-boiled egg, one slice of toast and black coffee or tea. Lunch: one slice of cheddar cheese, five Saltine crackers, one small apple and black coffee or tea. Dinner: 1 cup of tuna, 1 cup of carrots or beets, 1 cup of green beans or cauliflower, 1 cup of cantaloupe or one small apple and 1 cup of ice cream (vanilla).

Step 5

Eat normally for the next four days. It is important that you do not overeat and monitor your salt intake during this period.

The second is just something i bumped into while looking into this ‘diet’ these are just different “fad” diets that seem to be pretty popular.

The Best Diets for Fast Weight Loss

A 2007 Harvard study examined the most popular and well-known diet plans with the hope of ranking them in effectiveness. The researchers came to the conclusion that there is no “best” diet plan; that the overall effectiveness of the diet is based on the circumstances of the individual engaging in the diet. Here are three of the highest-rated plans.

Apple Cider Vinegar Diet

This diet can spur people to lose 10 pounds or more in two weeks. Here’s how it works: Take one to three teaspoons of apple cider vinegar before eating all of your meals. In the first two or three days, you should stick to one teaspoon of apple cider vinegar before increasing the amount. The vinegar is an appetite suppressant and will slow how much you eat at meals. A couple of points are noteworthy: Apple cider vinegar should not be taken for more than two weeks at a time because of its acidic nature. Additionally, the apple cider vinegar can have a corrosive effect on the teeth. Try to put it on the back of the tongue before swallowing it.

Medifast

Medifast tells its customers that they will lose 5-to-10 pounds in the early stages of the diet–the first week–and then lose about 2-3 pounds in each ensuing week. The initial surge is attractive to many customers and clients. The diet is based on a calorie intake of about 800-to-1,000 calories each week. Medifast provides the meals, and the customer eats six small meals per day.

3-Day Diet

The three-day diet is becoming one of the most popular diets available. Its sudden drop in calorie intake can lead to quick weight reduction. Some people call this a yo-yo diet because, while it can knock off the pounds, people tend to eat more after the three days are up.
The Day 1 menu includes coffee, grapefruit or grapefruit juice or a piece of toast with peanut butter for breakfast; 1/2 cup of tuna with one slice of toast and coffee for lunch; and 3 ounces of lean meat, 1 cup of green beans, 1 cup of carrots, 1 apple and 1 cup of coffee for dinner. The other days are similar.

So day 1 has gone surprisingly well. I’m happy that I’ve made it through the entire day with less than 500 calories. Initially 500 was my number for the day and tomorrow. Now after counting my calories for the day I’ve only had 280. I’m under buy quite a lot, which makes me very happy but now I’m a little hungry. I’ll be taking some tea tomorrow morning and going through the day like I did today, except I’ll have my BF hanging out with me for the  greater part of the afternoon.

So apparently there is such a thing, I found it because this afternoon I was thinking about how my auditions for music programs are coming up in less than a year. I really don’t want to go to university fat. So I posted on Twitter that I really needed a swift kick in the butt to get my back on the right track. Then I googled Ana Boot Camp Diet and found this site that reviews diets. After that I found out how the ABC diet works. It seems to give really good results if you stick it out and I am pretty sure this would be the perfect thing, I mean its pretty much what I do already except that I usually fast for a few days and then stop. This would be a lot longer and it works, so why not?

Below is how the ABC diet is supposed to go, its a 50 day plan.

Day 1: 500 calories (or less)

Day 2: 500 calories (or less)

3: 300 calories

4: 400 calories

5: 100 calories

6: 200 calories

7: 300 calories

8: 400 calories

9: 500 calories

10: Fast

11: 150 calories

12: 200 calories

13: 400 calories

14: 350 calories

15: 250 calories

16: 200 calories

17: Fast

18: 200 calories

19: 100 calories

20: Fast

21: 300 calories

22: 250 calories

23: 200 calories

24: 150 calories

25: 100 calories

26: 50 calories

27: 100 calories

28: 200 calories

29: 200 calories

30: 300 calories

31: 800 calories

32: Fast

33: 250 calories

34: 350 calories

35: 450 calories

36: Fast

37: 500 calories

38: 450 calories

39: 400 calories

40: 350 calories

41: 300 calories

42: 250 calories

43: 200 calories

44: 200 calories

45: 250 calories

46: 200 calories

47: 300 calories

48: 200 calories

49: 150 calories

50: Fast

This passed Monday I was at Barnes and Noble and I found myself reading through an eating disorder recovery book. At first, I thought ‘oh, this looks interesting, maybe I can get ideas for my blog.’ then I found myself sitting in a corner reading this book that was far more insightful than I expected. I couldn’t decide why I was reading it, if it really wasn’t for the benefit of research, could it be that a part of me really wanted to know what it was like for a former anorexic to live her life free of Ed? I’m still not sure. Bulimia isn’t a pretty disorder, you don’t see the effects of my fasts as quickly as you’d see it on an anorexic. Its also messy, painful, and stressful. Finding a place to throw it all up is my issue. Then asking myself ‘do they know?… did they hear me?’ its a horrible thing to have such horrible soreness in your back muscles from throwing up earlier that day that when your wonderful boyfriend touches you  all you want to do is scream from the pain! A part of me wishes I could tell him, but I know if I do he’d be worried and wouldn’t let it go because he loves me too much to see me hurt myself. I also don’t think it would be wise to tell him that so early in our relationship, then he’ll really know I’m fucked up and probably think I’m hiding other things from him, which isn’t the case.

I’ll post again over the weekend, I have to finish getting ready for class.

I have officially reinstated my membership at the Y and I’m going there this Saturday, then likely Sunday and Monday. Because I have so much shit to do I’ve decided I’m only going to work out at the gym those three days on which I will consume food so I can have the strength to work out, now on non gym days I’m still going to be exercising because I have to walk a lot at school and I’ll also be working with that Bender Ball thing I got when I’m home, this way I can get the damn weight off faster.

I’m only allowing myself to consume water with lemon, coffee, maybe some juices if they’re low in calories, and tea. That is it! On eating “normally” days I’ll be eating things like huge salads with some chicken or tuna so I can have a little protein, and I’m not going to count the calories in it just because I know I’ll be eating that maybe twice a day and it would come out to a total of maybe 600-800 calories for the whole day. Since I’ll be burning it off I’m not worried about it.

I do need to figure out how I’m going to get away with not eating with my boyfriend or friends at school. I think I’ll google it and see what ideas come up.

Note** please no comments or e mails saying how this is so dangerous or stupid that I am limiting so much. Its my body and I don’t care if you have a problem with it, get a quarter and call someone who gives a shit.

This year started out with impatience for me, impatience to get through my second semester in college. To get better at everything and to lose weight, I sadly wasted a lot of the year, in fact the majority of the year gaining, not giving a shit about myself. I did lose some pounds and even made it through a few days of fasting. However, that ‘effort’ wasn’t enough. Now I have new motivation, and even more than that I have the focus to accomplish these things.

My meal plan for the new year?

Vegetarian, when I eat

I am not playing this game of the “oh I’ll eat in moderation” no more!

My motivation?

My bright future and my desire to feel attractive again.

Last but not least, is because I want to be comfortable when my boyfriend touches me.

My thinspiration?

Life.

I have wasted so much time and I’m honestly not willing to waste any more.

Lately I’ve been very happy because I liked a guy I’ve been friends with and found out last week that he liked me too. He’s a little odd, but he’s the sweetest guy I’ve ever known. I’m going to see where it goes, but i’m also going to take it slow… just because I don’t want to ruin this.

Its been an interesting few days, I went on my trip to D.C. With my coworkers and the convention was absolutely amazing. I even got to do some sight seeing while I was there, I got to know my roomates/coworkers a lot better, and somehow started crushing on my boss who went with us. Here’s the thing, I’ve always somewhat liked him, but not so much as someone that I wanted to fuck but as someone I had some sort of a connection with that I couldn’t quite figure out. Well I helped him plan out what our group needed to do and scheduled my whole stay there, so I’d get to do everything I needed and wanted to do while I was there. We somehow bonded and ended up learning some very personal things about one another, actually I started thinking that maybe he might like me, then I quickly dismissed the idea because, come on. Me? Please, I laughed at the idea of someone like him possibly being into anyone like me. Well, turns out I was right.

Here’s what happened: Sunday night (November 22^nd ) we went on a night tour of D.C.  We had an amazing experience, I was able to call my mom from the Lincoln memorial because its something she’s always wanted to see. I just loved being there, my boss and I talked a lot about family and so on. Well by the time we got back to the hotel we were all tired, and I was starving. My boss mentioned he’d be eating in the sport’s bar downstairs and I decided to join him, I got there he called me over and I sat next to him. We talked about the tour and how amazing this trip had been so far, well somehow we started talking about how we’d both enjoyed getting to know each other much better over the time we’d been away on this trip, then he said he found me to be very interesting and that if he wasn’t a happily married man he’d be trying seduce me right about now. Of course, this kind of made me laugh because, seriously? Me? Yeah, ok… I admitted that I found him very interesting as well and that if he wasn’t married I’d be open to that. He said there was something about me that was just wonderful and intriguing or something like that. We just had so much fun talking about dating, men, women, and other things we lost track of time. We laughed and I was so comfortable, he also told me that he wished we could continue talking, that if the pool had been open that late he would have asked me to meet him there so we could keep talking. Also that, if he again wasn’t happily married, he’d be trying to get me to his room, and said that he didn’t think he’d fail at it. I agreed. It is a night that I doubt very much will ever repeat because he’s married, and doesn’t want to be unfaithful and I really don’t want to be that girl, the one on the outside, its not fun and always ends up in heartbreak. We ended the evening taking the elevator together, and me asking him to please let me help him more at work because he’s always so stressed out. He said, he’d be happy to and that he felt like he could really trust me. I have no problem with that. Do I wish it had gone further? Yes. Do I wish it would repeat? Yeah, and do I regret finding out he liked me too and that I can’t do anything about it? Absolutely. I rather know than think I’m imagining things.

I am so freaking wired! Which I love but still am a tiny bit hungry, I think I’m going to look at some thinspiration after this post and I’m hoping to get some lemons for my water after work. This day seems so nutty and loooonnnnggg but I’m off soon, I know that this post is rather random but it’s how I’m thinking these days. I feel good though, very energized and déjà vu-ish. Vocally I’m exhausted but I’m going to rest my voice after work. As of right now I’ve fasted a total of 63 hours so far and I’m not anywhere near done

This fast has been going amazingly well, I am not sure how much I’ve lost but I absolutely feel the difference in my body. I’m on something like 56 hours right now and I’m going to keep fasting until I can’t go anymore. Probably friday night or saturday. I’m now getting excited about my trip this weekend!! I can’t wait. Don’t worry i’ll be posting from D.C. and probably adding some pics from the trip. I might need some ideas about what to say when I’m not eating.